*Jessica White shared with the world her emotional message to ex-boyfriend Nick Cannon, three years after the end of their relationship.
In a sense deleted Instagram letter posted June 13, the famous model began the lengthy caption by suggesting that Cannon is upset over her decision to join “Love & Hip Hop: Atlanta” next season. In the caption, White also appeared to recall the time that she was living when Cannon when she found out on IG that he was having another baby with Brittany Bell.
White wrote: “Tried to reach out to you but here’s my book @nickcannon I know you’re upset about the show but after eight years I can’t stand when things catch you off guard and I feel like you deserve way more respect as a man even though I may be more respectful than you ever gave me With public announcements. .”
White continued on, saying she devoted eight years to their relationship, only to receive little reciprocation. She wrote: I have loved and I gave eight ride or die years to you With my head high and heart praying you’d see me the way I deserved. I wanted it to work, prayed every day that you’d see me and love me the way that I loved you. Maybe you did but just kept it from me during the relationship. I walked away with more questions than anything, I don’t know till this day really why current things had to happen.”
Eventually, White touched on how her life has changed since their breakup, saying: “For the first time since I fell in love with you years ago I find myself being extremely happy and hopeful and I liking a boy who makes me smile like a little girl. It’s new to me And I love that I’m feeling excited again and not scared or blocking my own happiness. thank God!.”
In conclusion, White stated: “I’m ending us with a Big Bang and I’m not scared to say the truth nor will I let you take the blame for us needing to end we were toxic together and I was very disrespectful verbally towards you many many times and sometimes I didn’t even care knowing how you hated verbal dysfunction I know. … @nickcannon nick we did our best and that’s enough for me.”
Cannon has 12 children with six different women. He and White nearly added to that number in 2020, but she suffered a miscarriage. The two broke up soon after.
Meanwhile, Cannon revealed last month that he was still in love with White during an interview with Hollywood Unlocked’s Jason Lee.
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Read White’s entire letter below:
Tried to reach out to you but here’s my book @nickcannon I know you’re upset about the show but after eight years I can’t stand when things catch you off guard and I feel like you deserve way more respect as a man even though I may be more respectful than you ever gave me With public announcements. . Lol I have loved and I gave eight ride or die years to you With my head high and heart praying you’d see me the way I deserved. I wanted it to work, prayed every day that you’d see me and love me the way that I loved you. Maybe you did but just kept it from me during the relationship. I walked away with more questions than anything, I don’t know till this day really why current things had to happen. I wanted the world to know I didn’t always feel good like Nc was proud to have me as a partner and I’m so happy I can say that now and still know how awesome I am. I’m proud I can say the truth and how I’m healthy emotionally and wouldn’t change my insane insecurities that I prayed off my life. I had many hurts and pain way before nick. I never felt love that was safe even as a kid so no nick you didn’t cause that pain I had it long before us but I put it off on you unfairly without seeing that my healing needed to be deeper past us. I mean you added to it but my fear of not being loved wasn’t broken by you I’d like to publicly say that. I felt like you always put the other women on a pedestal and i was beyond unstable about that. I have to say these things because I’m going to move on from public shame that has been over my life since I was at the top of my game in fashion. I know the truth now about just how much healing I needed and God has taken my hurt I’m not ashamed by being beautiful and successful and not being loved with care throughout my life because theres big big love coming to me that will fill up my memories with joy. God will get the glory out of my broken past not shame nor sadness. the truth is NC and I were both beautifully broken when we were children and didn’t know how to love each other. Instead we hurt each other.
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