*Grammy award-winning R&B singer-songwriter, Ciara, gave an emotional interview this week on Jada Pinkett-Smith’s Facebook Watch series “Red Table Talk.”
During their conversation, CiCi gets candid about a myriad of topics, from overcoming pain and her trust issues to now flourishing in her loving marriage to Seahawks quarterback Russell Wilson. She also addresses her engagement to rapper Future, which she called off nearly five years ago. Ciara admits that she’s still haunted by the pain she felt surrounding their breakup, Page Six reports.
“I’d have moments when I would be in the shower, I’d be crying,” Ciara told hosts Jada, her daughter Willow Smith and mother Adrienne Banfield-Jones on “Red Table Talk.” “I had a few different settings — crying in the bedroom, crying in the shower … crying because I’m not in the happiest place, and it hurts what I’m going through.”
Future and the “Level Up” singer are parents to 5-year-old son Future Zahir.
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“I grew up with my mom and dad being together, the idea of it being, ‘Mommy and Daddy made baby,’ then all of a sudden you’re living your life in front of the world. That adds a whole ‘nother layer,” she explained of their split. “‘I feel like I’m failing right now. Other people, they’re gonna roast me. Here they come in the comment section. I’m about to get fried.’”
Ciara explained that she decided to move on because it would be “the worst scenario to stay in a situation that’s just not healthy, that’s not gonna get any better.”
Ciara and Future called it quits after two years together following reports that he was unfaithful.
He later opened up about the split, saying, “I’m just not going to settle for anything, you know? Even in my life now, I know I can be a better person. I ain’t giving up on myself, so if you give up on me, I ain’t got nothing else to say for you. Because if you give up on something that’s real, it wasn’t real to you.”
In 2016, Ciara and Wilson tied the knot.
“It has been a very special journey for my husband and I because we are a blended family,” she added on “Red Table Talk.” “It does take time.”
Ciara also revealed that she and her hubby are not done having kids.
“If you would ask Russell, we have, like, five more kids to make,” Ciara shared. “I do look forward to having another baby. I would hope that I could have at least two more. I love kids. I love being a mom.”