*Chrissy Teigen is pulling back the curtain on her journey with alcohol, admitting she’s been drinking again, despite previously celebrating years of sobriety.
In a heartfelt Instagram post on May 15, the model and author opened up to her followers while promoting her “Self-Conscious” podcast episode featuring Holly Whitaker, author of “Quit Like a Woman.” Teigen credits the book with transforming her understanding of sobriety.
“Holly Whitaker changed my life, changed my perspective and changed how I view the f**king beast that is alcohol. But to have to admit to all of you: I let it back into my life. to let a lot of you down, oh I feel it deeply,” Teigen wrote alongside a photo of herself holding the book.
Teigen, 39, didn’t sugarcoat her experience. “I was so proud every time one of you told me on the street that holly and I made you want to rethink drinking, reframe drinking. I still am. The truth is, I don’t know what I’m doing. I one hundred percent know I like me better sober.”
She added, “I am one hundred percent pissed that I can’t be normal and have a cocktail with my husband on vacay without it turning into 8 and feeling like s—.”
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She expressed frustration over the way alcohol still holds sway in her life. “I’m tired of throwing up on a Tuesday. I don’t wanna feel like I need a shot to talk to a crowd,” she said. “I hate that the thought of maybe having a drink can consume me some days.”
Teigen anticipated judgment, writing, “I know you’re thinking, ‘OK THEN STOP, B—-,’ and you’re right.” Still, she said her perspective on sobriety has matured, even if her path hasn’t been linear. “All I know is my relationship with the whole process of sobriety (and messing up) has changed for the better.”
During her podcast conversation with Whitaker, Teigen revealed she started drinking again after two years sober.
“There was no big dramatic moment,” she said, but admitted, “If I were to listen to my inner voice, I would stop again, and that’s where it all gets very complicated.”
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