*Netflix will explore the life of the former Patriots tight end Aaron Hernandez, in a new docuseries set to drop on January 15.
The NFL player committed suicide in 2017 by hanging himself with a bed sheet in prison. He was 27.
In 2015, Hernandez was convicted of murdering Odin Lloyd—the boyfriend of Aaron’s wife’s (Shayanna Jenkins) sister. He was subsequently charged (and later acquitted) of a separate 2012 Boston double homicide, and accused of the near-fatal 2013 shooting of his friend Alexander Bradley, per The Daily Beast.
Hernandez was allegedly in a lot of pain prior to his death; suffering from childhood trauma and other personal issues, including “conflicting feelings over the death of a man he claimed had abused him,” PEOPLE writes. He also didn’t get along with his mother, Terri.
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“One minute she was dead to him, the next minute, he wanted to call her to see how she was,” a teammate tells PEOPLE.
“Everything about Aaron was a struggle,” the teammate says. “He had these really angry outbursts a lot, over insignificant things. And when he started, he couldn’t stop.”
Hernandez also allegedly struggled with his sexuality.
“He wanted to be the big man on campus who was having sex with a lot of women, but then he’d find guys on the down low,” the teammate says. “The girls were public, the guys were not.”
The teammate added. “He was constantly struggling against his demons, and no one could help him no matter how hard we tried,” he says “He was just too angry and too self-destructive. It was sad.”
In an interview last year, Hernandez’s older brother told PEOPLE that Aaron “had a lot of things happen, both good and bad,” said Jonathan Hernandez. “People think they know about my brother, but they really don’t. They know what they saw in the news, but they don’t know all the struggles he faced.”
Netflix’ s three-part documentary “Killer Inside” drops January 15.