*In an extensive Billboard cover story, Lil Nas X addresses his coming out message, and his “nerve-wracking” experience telling his father he’s gay.
Describing it as a “rip the Band-Aid off” moment, Nas X added, “It’s something I never probably would have did if I was still living with my parents,” he said. “I have that independence to do it, you know?”
Coming out as gay in June, he wrote on Twitter “some of y’all already know, some of y’all don’t care,” he said, pointing to the lyrics of his song “C7osure.”
The “Old Town Road” rapper previously admitted he was hesitant to come out but said he was “opening doors for more people” with his decision.
“I don’t want to just live my entire life, especially how I got to where I’m at, just not doing what I want to do.”
OTHER NEWS YOU MIGHT HAVE MISSED: Sharon Osbourne (‘The Talk’) Goes At Wendy Williams: ‘You Are Dark Inside, So Mean Constantly’
— billboard (@billboard) September 19, 2019
Nas X chopped it up with Kevin Hart on HBO’s “The Shop” recently and he explained why it important for him to come out during Pride month.
“It’s not that, like, it’s like being forced,” the rapper said. “It’s just knowing [that] growing up, I’m growing up to hate this shit.”
Hart then asks “what” exactly was Nas taught to hate as a child, to which the 20-year-old replied: “Homosexuality, gay people,” he said. Adding, “Come on, now. If you really from the hood, you know. For me, the cool dude with the song on the top of everything to say this any other time, I’m doing this for attention in my eyes. But if you’re doing this when you’re at the top, you know it’s for real.”
billboard ?? pic.twitter.com/YTutdUrzcN
— nope (@LilNasX) September 19, 2019
Meanwhile, when Billboard asked Lil Nas X if he feels any pressure following up the record-breaking “Old Town Road,” he replied: “I’m not worried about anything,” he says over lunch a few days after the VMAs. Sure, “Old Town Road” has created an identity for him, but he’ll create others. “As an artist building myself up, I’m going to have to continue to make other moments,” he says. “But it’s not something that I’m upset about or anything. I mean, maybe when I’m out in public and someone asks for a picture and they’re like, ‘Where is your hat?’ ”
After his breakout year, the Atlanta-native admits he’s hesitant to take a break from his rollercoaster of a career.
“I’m not as paranoid as I was before, but I’m still thinking if you miss too much you’re gone,” he says. “You step away from the public eye for too long, they don’t care no more. And whenever I do step away from the internet or the music too long, it’s like I have to slowly get back into myself to get back into the groove.”
You can read his full Billboard cover story here.